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Monday, March 17th, 2003
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9:26 pm - boo
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hey, yah im still alive... just computerless, im at alexss i like butterflies happy st patty
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| Saturday, September 7th, 2002
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3:19 am - IM NOT DEAD
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see, im not dead im just over worked and dont have enough time to call anyone, and also lack of internet services.
okay, play time is over, i miss you all.
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| Tuesday, July 9th, 2002
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4:06 pm - library?
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hey, guess what libraries have free internety stuff. and guess what else?
im in a library right now. it scares me but the books are talking to me, telling me its gonna be okay, and i believe them, wanna know something funny? binas prolly in here somewheres on a different thing (tee hee, i said prolly, i sound smart? no?)
lets see, new with von?
going back to work full time on the 16th. i have to work sundays though so i get sat. and mon. off. yay. that was a 'yay' of displeasedness. or something.
i like butterflies.
damnit dave, get off work, as i am lonley and scared.
somebody call von.
current mood:  scared
current music: systom - sugar
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| Monday, June 3rd, 2002
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4:32 pm
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hello
im at dans so i figured while im by a computer i might as well say hello.
wow im actually in vancouver and not working right now, crazy.
i figured it might be a good thing to spend a bit of time in the city i live in, instead of the city i mostly stay in....umm yah.
because langley is bringing slight unpleasantness, and i dont want to deal with it so i escape to the city.
stupid drink much.
current mood:  frustrated
current music: pure massacre silverchair
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| Sunday, May 26th, 2002
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9:16 pm
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if i just did what i think i just did i am so sorry! god i hate computers, stupid repetitiveness. and if i didnt do what i think i did, then nevermind. but i think i did, so sorry.
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7:40 pm - i dono wanna
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what do i like?
fast cars, loud music, guns, hunting, wrestling, porn, fighting, movies with aliens, explosions, and car chases, rough sex and head, beer, pot, and working on my car.
so uh,heh, wudda you like?
i like long walks along the beach, holding hands, romantic movies, italian food, talking on the phone, and shopping.
oh god just shoot me! as of tomorrow ill have worked 6 days this week, what the fuck, im supposed to be on call and possibly part time.
i dono wanna work tomorrow.
i knocked myself out with my yo-yo the other day, my head still hurts.
i wan to sleep, but must continue to experiment with sleep deprevation and too much caffeine.
every time i wake up beside you,
i lye there stairing at you,
wondering if im being 'creepy'.
in the dark i can see your sleeping face,
so i poke it,
and when you open your eyes,
i pretend to sleep.
and realize:
yes, i am really fuckin creepy.
im so so sorry.
i swear to no god i believe in, that if another kid asks me how much something is, and the price tag is clearly visible, i will create my very own dead baby joke, and its not gonna be funny, but itll be very very long.
current mood:  cranky
current music: stupid madonna 'human nature' song. live version
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7:40 pm - i dono wanna
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what do i like?
fast cars, loud music, guns, hunting, wrestling, porn, fighting, movies with aliens, explosions, and car chases, rough sex and head, beer, pot, and working on my car.
so uh,heh, wudda you like?
i like long walks along the beach, holding hands, romantic movies, italian food, talking on the phone, and shopping.
oh god just shoot me! as of tomorrow ill have worked 6 days this week, what the fuck, im supposed to be on call and possibly part time.
i dono wanna work tomorrow.
i knocked myself out with my yo-yo the other day, my head still hurts.
i wan to sleep, but must continue to experiment with sleep deprevation and too much caffeine.
every time i wake up beside you,
i lye there stairing at you,
wondering if im being 'creepy'.
in the dark i can see your sleeping face,
so i poke it,
and when you open your eyes,
i pretend to sleep.
and realize:
yes, i am really fuckin creepy.
im so so sorry.
i swear to no god i believe in, that if another kid asks me how much something is, and the price tag is clearly visible, i will create my very own dead baby joke, and its not gonna be funny, but itll be very very long.
current mood: cranky
current music: stupid madonna 'human nature' song. live version
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7:40 pm - i dono wanna
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what do i like?
fast cars, loud music, guns, hunting, wrestling, porn, fighting, movies with aliens, explosions, and car chases, rough sex and head, beer, pot, and working on my car.
so uh,heh, wudda you like?
i like long walks along the beach, holding hands, romantic movies, italian food, talking on the phone, and shopping.
oh god just shoot me! as of tomorrow ill have worked 6 days this week, what the fuck, im supposed to be on call and possibly part time.
i dono wanna work tomorrow.
i knocked myself out with my yo-yo the other day, my head still hurts.
i wan to sleep, but must continue to experiment with sleep deprevation and too much caffeine.
every time i wake up beside you,
i lye there stairing at you,
wondering if im being 'creepy'.
in the dark i can see your sleeping face,
so i poke it,
and when you open your eyes,
i pretend to sleep.
and realize:
yes, i am really fuckin creepy.
im so so sorry.
i swear to no god i believe in, that if another kid asks me how much something is, and the price tag is clearly visible, i will create my very own dead baby joke, and its not gonna be funny, but itll be very very long.
current mood: cranky
current music: stupid madonna 'human nature' song. live version
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7:40 pm
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what do i like?
fast cars, loud music, guns, hunting, wrestling, porn, fighting, movies with aliens, explosions, and car chases, rough sex and head, beer, pot, and working on my car.
so uh,heh, wudda you like?
i like long walks along the beach, holding hands, romantic movies, italian food, talking on the phone, and shopping.
oh god just shoot me! as of tomorrow ill have worked 6 days this week, what the fuck, im supposed to be on call and possibly part time.
i dono wanna work tomorrow.
i knocked myself out with my yo-yo the other day, my head still hurts.
i wan to sleep, but must continue to experiment with sleep deprevation and too much caffeine.
every time i wake up beside you,
i lye there stairing at you,
wondering if im being 'creepy'.
in the dark i can see your sleeping face,
so i poke it,
and when you open your eyes,
i pretend to sleep.
and realize:
yes, i am really fuckin creepy.
im so so sorry.
i swear to no god i believe in, that if another kid asks me how much something is, and the price tag is clearly visible, i will create my very own dead baby joke, and its not gonna be funny, but itll be very very long.
current mood: cranky
current music: stupid madonna 'human nature' song. live version
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7:40 pm
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what do i like?
fast cars, loud music, guns, hunting, wrestling, porn, fighting, movies with aliens, explosions, and car chases, rough sex and head, beer, pot, and working on my car.
so uh,heh, wudda you like?
i like long walks along the beach, holding hands, romantic movies, italian food, talking on the phone, and shopping.
oh god just shoot me! as of tomorrow ill have worked 6 days this week, what the fuck, im supposed to be on call and possibly part time.
i dono wanna work tomorrow.
i knocked myself out with my yo-yo the other day, my head still hurts.
i wan to sleep, but must continue to experiment with sleep deprivation and too much caffeine.
every time i wake up beside you,
i lye there starring at you,
wondering if im being 'creepy'.
in the dark i can see your sleeping face,
so i poke it,
and when you open your eyes,
i pretend to sleep.
and realize:
yes, i am really fuckin creepy.
im so so sorry.
i swear to no god i believe in, that if another kid asks me how much something is, and the price tag is clearly visible, i will create my very own dead baby joke, and its not gonna be funny, but itll be very very long.
current mood: cranky
current music: stupid madonna 'human nature' song. live version
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7:40 pm
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what do i like?
fast cars, loud music, guns, hunting, wrestling, porn, fighting, movies with aliens, explosions, and car chases, rough sex and head, beer, pot, and working on my car.
so uh,heh, wudda you like?
i like long walks along the beach, holding hands, romantic movies, italian food, talking on the phone, and shopping.
oh god just shoot me! as of tomorrow ill have worked 6 days this week, what the fuck, im supposed to be on call and possibly part time.
i dono wanna work tomorrow.
i knocked myself out with my yo-yo the other day, my head still hurts.
i wan to sleep, but must continue to experiment with sleep deprivation and too much caffeine.
every time i wake up beside you,
i lye there starring at you,
wondering if im being 'creepy'.
in the dark i can see your sleeping face,
so i poke it,
and when you open your eyes,
i pretend to sleep.
and realize:
yes, i am really fuckin creepy.
im so so sorry.
i swear to no god i believe in, that if another kid asks me how much something is, and the price tag is clearly visible, i will create my very own dead baby joke, and its not gonna be funny, but itll be very very long.
current mood: cranky
current music: stupid madonna 'human nature' song. live version
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7:40 pm
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what do i like?
fast cars, loud music, guns, hunting, wrestling, porn, fighting, movies with aliens, explosions, and car chases, rough sex and head, beer, pot, and working on my car.
so uh,heh, wudda you like?
i like long walks along the beach, holding hands, romantic movies, italian food, talking on the phone, and shopping.
oh god just shoot me! as of tomorrow ill have worked 6 days this week, what the fuck, im supposed to be on call and possibly part time.
i dono wanna work tomorrow.
i knocked myself out with my yo-yo the other day, my head still hurts.
i wan to sleep, but must continue to experiment with sleep deprivation and too much caffeine.
every time i wake up beside you,
i lye there starring at you,
wondering if im being 'creepy'.
in the dark i can see your sleeping face,
so i poke it,
and when you open your eyes,
i pretend to sleep.
and realize:
yes, i am really fuckin creepy.
im so so sorry.
i swear to no god i believe in, that if another kid asks me how much something is, and the price tag is clearly visible, i will create my very own dead baby joke, and its not gonna be funny, but itll be very very long.
current mood: cranky
current music: stupid madonna 'human nature' song. live version
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| Friday, May 24th, 2002
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10:28 pm - STUPID COLLEGE CLUB
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if anyone else has e mail on collegeclub, please tell me you cant get to it either, otherwise im gonna feel really stupid.
on a not much happier note: were getting rid of the internet, so i will say my fairwells now (which would be a hell of a lot easier if could e mail people.
i might get it back when and if i start working regularly agian. im saying my fairwells now because im not sure if i will have a free minute or two before the end of the month, which is the time i will be saying "bye bye" to the wonderful world of online knowledge and porn.
fuckin collegeclub.
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| Wednesday, May 22nd, 2002
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11:06 am - DAN AND/OR ROB! IF YOU READ THIS TODAY BEFORE DESIGNATED MEETING TIME PLEASE PLEASE CALL ME AT WORK!
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| Tuesday, May 21st, 2002
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10:21 pm - i apologize ahead of time for the lack of structure and thought in this.
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yes, so no work for tomorrow = hopefully going to beach and taking pictures of dead things tangled in seaweed. please? if i can find some company? and if not ill go all by myself. yah.
ow, my head still hurts from hitting it with my yo-yo on sat. stupid von.
kangaroo mice ate my finger nails, now theyre all jagged and i have to file them.... i really really want a kangaroo mouse.
my right arm broke out in hives today for no apparent reason.
and you can feed goldfish chopped up frozen peas.
i want frozen peas.
wow! anxiety attack...
rescue remedy works well.
im gonna see my kids on tuesday, i am esited.
yah i was on the phone with my dad earlier, and i figured since i dont live with him anymore and rarely see him, it might be okay to say something like 'i love you' or 'i miss you', considering he is my dad, and even though it was never really said before, maybe its my fault, i dont know. whatever, i dont care. i just know better for next time.
im going back and getting all my stuff out of there.
gatew-- or rez... i guess? was fun on sat. i believe that i shall have to attend next week also.
yaaaaaaaaaaay thank you nancie! i love them.... i love them all, i love my dolls and feel so special i could explode, or implode... or spontaneously combust, but i wont.
ow! theres something in my eye, what is it? oh i know what it is, and i think someone else does too:P
sorry, im having too much trouble staying on one subject, topic, emotion, thought etc. im going away now.
current mood:  contemplative
current music: stupid music for cats stuck in my head
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| Tuesday, May 14th, 2002
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8:51 pm
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tee hee hee jim rose circus?
the code word is "impressed"
i wanna grow up to be like Cappy, Jim Rose called me a cutie! sorry, ill stop bragging now, it was a fun night.
yah, on a different note, i got laid off today....
and then rehired. but i might have to take the next two months off so someone else can work (its confusing, i know). i dont know, well figure it out tomorrow. its just a small delay in plans for moving out.... maybe ill take some classes or something.....volunteer somewhere? i dont know, feel kind of lost.
whatever.
apparently im developing this sugary outer lining from eating too much sugar,but that still doesnt mean im sweet!
advice on life?.....
watch out for wooden nickels when you sell your soul.
current mood:  cold
current music: wooden nickels - eels
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| Sunday, April 21st, 2002
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10:13 pm - emotionless sex
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yay! i finally got to spend an entire weekend in vancouver, and i must admit i quite enjoyed it. thank you to everyone who made it so grand.
i dont know, saturday night was ass though (thank you alix for the new word).
well, i think most of the butterflies have found their way out of my chest cavity, (either that, or they died) because im feeling alot better....
OH GOD MAKE IT STOP.
current music: monkey vs robot
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| Friday, April 19th, 2002
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8:08 pm
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yah.... i havent had a smoke or any coffee, it snow 8:15pm sick is st ill i , and god is not my friend today.it feel s like all of th e butterfleyes have crumble d and died and now are stuck in my lungs and going all pulpy.makes it hard to breath.... oh god, s o tired maybe just lie down dgo to sleep, walk towards the white light. i smell like old people, oh god shoot me.
maybe bath will make it all better (if i drown).
pray for von ;(
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| Thursday, April 18th, 2002
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8:19 pm
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where have all the butterflies gone?
can you make them comeback?.......please?
you know its so cold without the butterflies....
current mood: cold
current music: the sound my throat makes when i breath
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5:47 pm - von=sick-nicotine+feel like shit > work
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health is health...unless its unhealth, then its me.= von is sick.
cat
cat
cat
cat
what you say?
cat
cat claws
in my thigh.
equals ow.
stupidness of vons sick head causing her to make sense of the senseless, and lack of sens-e-ness,
oh god i dont even know, and i hate it so much.
so i contemplate ending present relationship for a bit of sanity. is only thoughts though, no actions, or words.
i had it all figured out into some kind of mathematical equation in my head, it made sense to me.
dave=langley
von=vancouver
dave+von=relationship
relationship=(+emotions)
that parts pretty clear.but,
langley+vancouver=distance.
thus
dave+von=distance.
in reality it should be.
dave+von=distance+realising this=(-relationship)
(-dave)+(+von)= 0 which in theory should enable me to live my life in vancouver, and not be torn between two cities.
but theres this problem that i cant seem to figure out.
dave+von=relationship=(+emotions) > distance and anything that makes sense.
i just have to figure out how to cancel out that stupid (+emotions) part.
oh hey, i know.
von+swift kick to the nuts+dave=
oh wait, never mind.
i wish it was:
dave+von=vancouver.
on a different note im really fucking sick and have had HALF A SMOKE TODAY it is now 6:25
and i feel like curling up in a fetal position and waiting for my head and chest to explode.
speaking of chest, what do you guys think of the word "trust"?
questions/comments?
current mood:  confused
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